EastEnders and Hollyoaks actor Richard Blackwood has recalled his suicidal rock-bottom again in 2003.
The actor, 48, revealed how he’d purchased a gun throughout a battle with melancholy.
He’d additionally change into bankrupt and supposed to finish his personal life.
Throughout a bravely sincere Instagram interview, Richard mentioned that for years, solely a handful of individuals knew about what he’d been via.
“I attempted to shoot myself. I went to drag the set off,” he admitted.
“When it comes to the suicide and solely the those who had been there actually know.
“I haven’t got it now and it is well past, I attempted to shoot myself.”
Richard went on to explain how his ex-girlfriend, Samia Stokes, had slapped the gun from his hand and saved his life.
“I had a strap [gun],” he continued, “and I went to drag the set off and somebody with me on the time hit it out of my hand.
“How she stopped me from doing it, is that she picked it up and goes, ‘I will shoot myself at first after which shoot you.’
“And that is how she stopped me. That is the reality.
“Individuals do not actually know that. It wasn’t no fool means, I put it in my mouth.”
Richard informed that Samia had caught him attempting to take his personal life after she believed she had talked him out of suicide.
He requested her to get him a drink, however she realised what he was doing, ran again into the room and “knocked it out of my hand earlier than I pulled it”.
“And that was it,” Richard mentioned, “that’s what occurred.”
He beforehand informed The Sun how chapter hit him exhausting after a string of successes early on in his profession.
“Once I was made bankrupt it was exhausting,” he remembered, “as a result of I used to be one of many first younger guys from the MTV period to be deemed to have all of it after which to lose all of it.
“I used to be depressed, I used to be suicidal. It was very actual for me again then.”
In the event you’re struggling and want to speak, the Samaritans operates a free helpline open 24/7 on 116 123. Alternatively, you’ll be able to e-mail Jo@samaritans.org in case you’d want to jot down down how you are feeling. You aren’t alone.