Katie Value has candidly revealed she contemplated taking her personal life earlier this yr when she discovered herself hitting all-time low.
The 42-year-old mum-of-five mentioned she had darkish ideas after feeling betrayed by these she thought-about her closest companions and feared she couldn’t belief anybody round her.
Whereas years of being abused by on-line trolls additionally had a damaging have an effect on on her psychological well being – with the star taking remedy at The Priory again in February.
Katie opened up about her struggles, her low factors, her remedy and her hopes for the longer term as she bared her soul to followers on-line.
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The star mentioned in a video shared on her official YouTube web page: “I had ideas of killing myself. That is how unhealthy it bought for me however you guys do not know that as a result of Katie Value all the time places on a courageous face.”
Katie revealed she had been struggling within the lead-up to her departure from Unfastened Ladies – who she was a panelist on till September 2018 when she disappeared from the line-up amid hypothesis of drug abuse.
She mentioned in her video: “Consider it or not Unfastened Ladies was my breaking level. I do not know the way on earth I used to do it when actually I used to be ailing, I used to be struggling
“Now I would like to do Unfastened Ladies or reveals as a result of I am such a distinct particular person and it is all from being in The Priory.”
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Opening up about how she bought to such a low level, Katie defined loneliness was a part of the problem – as a result of she discovered herself unable to belief others.
She mentioned: “I’m not happy with it however I had no one near me to speak too, they’d all betrayed me sooner or later, there was few individuals I might belief.
“I needed to maintain every little thing in and couldn’t discuss. I simply needed to sleep. I used to be weak… and I let a drug get the higher of me and I let individuals use me.
“Then I had a wakeup name… if I do not get assist I’ll die or self destruct. l had misplaced me, the youngsters had misplaced their mum, no one believed in me anymore.”
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Katie mentioned she had grown bored with on-line trolls mocking her upbringing and household circumstances.
She mentioned: “I’m a mother-of-five, I come from a traditional working class household, I’ve constructed my empire to assist my youngsters purely via onerous work.
“So if you happen to wanna knock somebody like that, then do it. I won’t be probably the most clever particular person, however I’m a grafter.”
Katie credited her 5 youngsters and her blossoming romance with present boyfriend, former Love Island contestant Carl Woods, for serving to her flip her life round.
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She mentioned: “I hit all-time low however I am now again up, now you watch me develop, I am the highly effective impartial Katie Value I used to be years in the past.
“I’m in a cheerful place, very blissful, very sturdy, in a really very sturdy relationship, I am in love, and have discovered my future, so watch this house.”
She additionally advocated persevering with psychological well being remedy, declaring: “I’m not in The Priory now however I nonetheless communicate to physician, when you’ve got a headache you are taking a pill…. I am not ashamed of my psychological well being.”
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